The Huggins Haunts

Well, it's that time of year again... one of our favorites! I'm currently watching Ghostbusters, something I haven't seen in I don't know how long. LOVE IT. Since it IS 12:30... I certainly don't feel like writing much, but I CAN share pictures! We love decorating our house and the yard. Hope you enjoy... just remember, we still have lots and lots to redo in the house. Any wallpaper you may see is not of my choosing.

 Happy Halloween!

I got a call at work from a proud husband... saying he 'planted a tree'

Gettin' started...

Homemade fog machine chiller

First cold spell of the season, doin' it right!

First shot of an almost complete yard... wait... what is?

HOLY CRAP HOW MANY GHOSTS CAN YOU COUNT AND WHY ARE THEY AT MY DOOR AND IN MY HOUSE AND PEAKING OUT MY WINDOWS. I STILL SLEEP WITH A LIGHT ON. 

Too tuckered out from playing with his new pumpkin toy.

Ugh. Me and my failures.

Another, more cheerful post!

Sorry to bring ya'll down in today's earlier post. I'm better right now, on an upswing I guess you could say...and because of that, I finished my wreath for our front door:

Too easy and too too cute! Simply wrap Styrofoam wreath in burlap, make felt roses using any tutorial online, and cut the A&M out of hard felt. Use lots and lots of hot glue and burn your fingers too!

Wha-la! Done. Just in time for tomorrow's game.

BTHO 'Bama, Ags! Gig'em!

This is for me.

To Write Love On Her Arms is doing a "I Cannot Be Replaced Because..." campaign right now and as much as I have tried, I've had a hard time coming up with reasons.

This post may be public, but really... it's just for me. 

But I left it public on purpose...

Not for the attention or the 'cry for help', not for comments of worried friends... maybe someone else will know these feelings and scrape and dig (like I often have to) to come up with even the smallest list. The most trivial of things that matter. 

Maybe one day I can look back and remind myself why I am still here. Maybe one day I will have many more reasons to list, because even through my cloudiness right now, I know there are more out there. I'm sure of it. There just has to be.

I just can't find them. So, in my "funk" as so many want to call it... I reminded myself that even though I think about it, often, I have not in fact- ended my life. So what's holding me back?

See.. as much as it will piss my husband off, I don't list "because I'd leave my husband behind" or something similar because quite often, I think he'd be okay. Sometimes I think he would be better off without me. Regardless of the truth behind it or not, I think that often. I don't necessarily believe that there is one person for everyone... because even though I could not imagine my life without Chris... I feel like he has a lot to offer others. I feel like he could easily find someone... probably better... if he had to. I feel like he could move on and be happy. Maybe someone else won't nag him or bitch about her problems or how crazy she is in the head. Maybe someone who isn't so introverted or someone who can give him children. I don't know. He's a good guy, that's all. There is a reason I fell in love with him.

I don't know what my reasons are. The ones I came up with are silly... but hell, if it gets me by, right?

1.) Even though I have Chris and family, I wouldn't want anyone else taking care of my fur-babies.

2.) My grandmother... and my parents who lost three before me. It'd be like, selfish Erika, at it again.

3.) I'd like to redo my house and make sure it's clean. I want to see my ideas come to life.

4.) I don't know where I stand on God and the suicide issue. Best not to chance it for now, right?

And... I guess that's it. For now.

I know, somewhere, somehow, there has to be a brighter day. But today, I just can't see it.

Feelin' artsy....

I got a little bored earlier and decided to make this:

It's my absolute favorite part of my favorite hymn!

365 days and counting

Well... I did it! I made it to a year of not smoking! After ten years of smoking a pack/pack-and-a-half a day, I actually made it. Whew!

Here's my progress:

Hard to believe I would have smoked over 7,000 cigarettes and spent over $2,300! I am so glad I made the decision to quit. I feel better that I could have imagined. And love getting compliments on my perfume, because before... the smoke covered it up.

I love not waking up feeling like death and hacking up what might have been a lung. I love not getting winded walking from my car into a store. I don't miss the cottonmouth at all.

...but if I am being honest... I DO miss smoking too. Maybe part of me always will. While I do use the E-Cig still and vape at 0 mg of nicotine... I'd love to pick up a Marlboro Light.

One of my biggest accomplishments (for myself) is having the opportunity to smoke, without anyone knowing, and having the will power to say no. Cleaning out my car once, alone in my back yard, I came across a perfectly in tact Marlboro Light 100. Who would know?

I would have.

So I broke it in half and threw it away.

....so, a year later, and one goal down... I hope I can have the same will-power on my next endeavor: weight loss. Chris began a couple weeks ago and is doing so well. I am so proud of him!

I'm easing in to it. I'm not sure I am 100% ready-- but I'm getting there. I'm readier than I've ever been.

Here's to another year of making better choices! If I can add around 30 days to my lifespan by not smoking... where will I be in a year of eating better and exercising?

Want to follow our progress? Visit us over at our weight loss blog: ahealthierhuggins.blogspot.com

Until next time.... 

Laundry Room

I'm really itchin' to get our Laundry Room revamped. It's been FAR too long since we have redone anything in the house. Things have been hectic... but it's time. Right now this room is pretty drab but I think we can redo it relatively cheap!

Excuse the cat food ALL over the dryer. 

...also excuse the litter box. That 'cabinet' is actually a pull out ironing board with sleeve board. I need
 to find new covers for both of them. They are too cute. Not that I iron... but it's the idea, right?

I got bored once when Chris was out of town and decided to paint the door going into the garage. It needs another coat, but the idea is there. We also don't even have the light cover on.... because, reasons. 

The floor of sticky tiles. (And my cute pedicured toes.)

So after several ideas tossed around, at Christmas I asked for these pictures on Amazon and my parents got them for me. I think it's a great start for my 'inspiration'. I also bought these knobs at Hobby Lobby when they were on sale awhile ago.

So, where to go from here? Here's the run-down on what ideas I'd like to see happen.

FLOORING

LIGHTING

DECOR

A LITTLE OOMPH

After a fresh coat of paint on the outside, what not a fun pop of color on the inside?

I found these two swatches that I really liked for the inside of the cabinets/accent color. Both are a minty
 blue-green color, though the picture doesn't do them justice. I am loving mint colors right now!

I'd like to paint our washer and dryer. Maybe a black or accent color (mint?) 

Maybe we can begin this little project soon! I'd think it could be done over a weekend or so. Fueled with enough champagne, I might be able to do anything! 

I don't really have a post, but instead an update!

I'm just 75 days away from my year anniversary of not smoking.

This is huge, ya'll.

I still remember one year ago... smoking a pack a day, thinking I'd like to quit... but how in the world would I function? What would I do with my time?

I honestly can't believe I did it.

I'm still vaping, but my nicotine level is 0 mg. ZERO! I guess my next step is weening myself off this, but until then... I'm fine with puffing vapor.

I've saved money.

I feel so much better.

I SMELL so much better.

I'm proud of me! And that's not something I say often!

Here's my tracker as of today... crazy looking at those numbers!

FIVE-THOUSAND-NINETY-TWO CIGARETTES. WOW.